SERENE(:

Friday, May 29, 2009
:: Feeling abit frustrated.... ::

Hmmm..so fast May going to end le..Feeling abit frustrated..dunno y..Lots of things like not going very smoothly for me..Like work, health n school all like not that good..haiz..

First is work..WORK is getting more n more frustrating..wanna leave but can't get a job..haiz..more n more things to do at work but no one can help..all u get is trouble..Everyday will sure have something from my manager asking me to settle..haiz..so many payments to make..i also dunno how to make the payments..just throw all to me n expect me to settle..need to go out cover the counter n need to help her settle all the shit payments..all the payments need to call to check how i could make payments..cos i had nv done all this before..i dunno who can help me..but i doubt anyone could help me..haiz..sometimes not that i dun want to faster settle the payments..is that i gt no time to call to check how to make payment..if stay in the backroom to check, the manager will start nagging, telling u to go out cover the counters..i really dunno how..after work tried to call the depts, all left office le.. then how to do all the things..wat the hell..all she do is ask u why havent make payment..why can't she help to check how to make payment..whole day in the office dunno do wat..keep talking to ppl like everyone so free to entertain her..i really dunno wat is wrong with my new manager..when ask her things, she just keep talking n talking but nothing useful came out from her mouth..without her around, things can be settled faster..haiz..think of work really damn sianz..everytime off / leave sure got call to ask u to go back to work..wat the hell..ppl take leave or off for fun meh? confirm gt something on then will apply leave or take off mah..i too free nothing to do then purposely go take leave dun go work ah..crazy..taking leave already so difficult to get le, get le still kanna call back, like that how to clear leave..hopefully tmr they can let me go on leave peacefully..dun call me to ask me to go back..

Next thing is that my back is worrying me..haiz..went for physiotherapy today..then my physiotherapist told me that my back is getting worst.. though i dun feel the pain so often le but i experience numbness from my back to my toes..so she told me that this numbness that i experience is not a good sign..hmmm..i also dunno how..haiz..hopefully will improve with physio..but i gt no time to go..the next appt is one month later..cos cannot take leave at work to go..they gt slots for earlier dates but i can't take leave..so can't make it..haiz..if this goes on, i dunno how..i was told to go twice a month but now i am only going once a month..i really hope that my back will improve but there is nothing i can do besides doing the exercises at home daily and also going for the physio..hopefully the exercises will improve my back..that is the only thing i can do now..will be consulting the doctor in one month time..hope that there is improvements..if not will have to go for the MRI scan which will cost me a bomb i suppose..i heard that MRI scan is not cheap..i dun wanna waste money..haiz..cos need to save up for study and for family expenses..

Coming July, I will be starting school at SIM doing a Degree in Accountancy awarded by RMIT.. Duration of the course is 2 yrs and total cost is abt $17k..no money to pay so applied for study loan with POSB..so really need to save up..cos every month must pay back..cannot wait till finish studying then pay..This is my last chance to work hard le..must really study hard this time round..cos not young anymore..if still dun study hard n get a degree, then will sure stay in the same company doing all the shit forever..i dun want to do that..so the best way is to upgrade n progress to higher level or other areas..n i also dun want to be looked down by some ppl so i will work very hard to do well..n most imptly, i dun want to waste my $17k..

That's all that i wanna say..just feel frustrated n wanna let go by writing all out..feeling better now..hmmm..not early le going to sleep le..goodnight!!=)

Wondering if u r doing well in camp..must take care wor..
soon will end le..hopefully can meet up soon!!=)
I dunno if u know that i still have feelings for you after so long..
i dun ask for anything from u..n i dun wanna force u..
But I just hope n wish that oneday u will give me a chance
n accept me n give each other a chance to be together..

SERENE-D(x 2:56 am

Monday, May 04, 2009
:: Happy Birthday to myself!!=) ::

Today is my 22nd birthday..so fast..22 yrs old le..first i would like to thanks all who remembered my birthday and thanks all for ur well wishes..=) didn't really celebrate this yr...took leave today then in the morning went for hepatitis B vaccine at polyclinic..hahaha..so funny right..birthday go take vaccine..but cos very difficult to leave and off now..so take this chance to go for the vaccine..=)

Then early in the morning, received a call from the branch..my manager told me that two of my colleagues on mc..then asked if i could go back to work..hmmm..but cos already made appt for the vaccine thing n need to go keep my ah ma company, so didn't go back to work..plus i really dun wanna go work on my birthday..as i scare later kanna scolded by ppl..then will be damn sad..nowadays ppl ard very weird..so better be careful..anything can happen any time..so i told my manager i can't go back..so sorry to everyone in BTB who had worked very hard today..i suppose it's a busy day as beginning of the month plus it's mon n long weekend from fri..sorry that i did not go back to work..hope everyone will understand..

Feeling giddy from just now..dunno wat's wrong..haiz..sian..birthday still dun feel well..hope will be ok by tmr..cos need to work tmr..this week only work 4 days..so should be ok ba..hahaha..dun feel like working but no choice..cos need to earn money..so everyday i will just go work and after bank close faster finish my job and leave the branch..dun stay there so long..cos not worth it..cos ppl won't appreciate..

Soon today will end..i really hope that all my wishes will come true..but most impt is hope i will stay healthy..=p though today is abit boring for me but i did enjoy the few days of leave or off..cos no need to work..hahaha..Once again i want to thanks all who had remembered my birthday!!=)

SERENE-D(x 9:12 pm

Saturday, May 02, 2009
:: 2 days to 22yrs old.. ::

2 more days to 22 yrs old..so fast..hope this few days dun pass so fast..cos after this few days of rest, then hardly got off le..so abit sian..haiz..really dun like to work at the current place..cos things are getting more n more complicated..the more i work, the more frustrated i am..cos of the ppl ard..sometimes i really dun understand y i am feeling so frustrated at work..maybe it's a sign that i should leave the workplace or maybe it's a sign that i need a long rest before continuing to work there..but wat can i do? got leave cannot take, got off cannot clear..everyday kanna scolding..so sianz!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, really happy that i am having four days rest till coming tues..so i must enjoy myself now..hmmm.dunno wat i should do on my birthday..cos like no one free to celebrate with me..took leave on monday as dun wanna work on my birthday..already everyday kanna scold le..so on my birthday dun wanna go work n kanna scolded..but no one is free to celebrate with me..haiz..at first shaun can celebrate with me cos he will take leave but he being call back to tekong..so cannot celebrate with me le..so no one le..other friends all working..n my dearest friend, wan ying in aust..so sad..so this yr will spend my birthday alone at home..will be rotting at home the whole day with my drumset ba..haha..=)

So fast 22yrs old coming..like just celebrated my 21st birthday..then now going to 22 le..still no boyfriend..haha..no degree, no driving license..so many things still haven't achieve..dunno how..hahaha..soon will grow old le..haha..cos time passes very fast..hopefully i will achieve all that i want soon..=)

Having talked so much abt growing old, now let's talk abt some thing else..haha..hmmm..after my birthday, i will be looking forward for WMC 2009 at holland le..haha..will be flying to holland for WMC 2009 on 26 July..can't wait for that time to come..cos will be going with kailing, crystal, shaun, nuraziah, brenden n the rest of the percussion section ppl..i believe the trip will be fun..cos this time round i more familiar le..then with ppl nearer to my age group..hahaha..four yrs ago first time go so blur..hahaha..then still had a fall..this time go must be careful le..must enjoy myself..saving up to shop there..so excited..haha..hope July will come soon!!!=)

really looking forward to july..cos wanying n jenn will be back in singapore too!! so july will be a very exciting n busy month...as for may n june, this two months will be abit less busy but must study le..cos exams for acca coming in june..hahaha..so must act guai le..hahaha..must pass this time..=) dun wanna waste money le..k la..i cooked curry chicken today..so going to eat my curry le..hahaha..will update my blog again soon!! =p

SERENE-D(x 3:35 pm