It's year 2008 le..been a long time since i update my blog...haiz..was busy with work and school..so dun really have the time and energy to blog..now abit free so came in to blog..heehee..
Yesterday (Sunday), was a busy day for me too..i woke up at 7 plus in the morning as i going to pray my mum's eldest sis (that is my da yee)..hmmm..she passed away several years ago..and this is the first time i went to pray to her..come to think abt it, i abit bad..right? so fast a few years had past..n now i going to turn 21 le..haiz..
After praying, i went to my cousin's house with my other relatives for lunch..chatted with them for some time..then after lunch, we went to farm mart to walk..cos abit bored..as some of my relatives playing mahjong..first time go farm mart still quite fun..haha..got alot of things to see..=p next time must bring my mum there..
After which, i went home to change and headed down to band..Reached band at ard 4 plus..luckily they still haven't play river dance..saw tama while playing river dance..then abit panic..haha..cos he staring at us..dunno why today i abit nervous when i play..hope it's not too obvious..coming sat is the performance le..hope MAWO percussion section will be able to play well this time..this is the first time we playing without jennifer..hahaha..hope it will be good..i believe with nazreen around, we should be fine..jiayou wor, everyone!!!=p
Then after band, went to ah ma's house..i felt like an alien there..when i stepped into the house, i greeted my relatives..but they ignored me like f**k..i was wondering if i had glass for lunch..all treated me like i was transparent..really no manners.. they really sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!! dun wanna talk abt them anymore..later my blood pressure go up..
hmmm..i had been thinking alot recently..abt home, abt school, abt work n also him..at home, gt lots of unsolved problems..dunno how to handle it..maybe just let is be for the moment..then school, thinking if i am going the right path?? i really dunno yet..at work, so many problems..thinking whether i should quit..still thinking..but already started to keep a lookout on jobs vancancies..n also updated my resume..just in case i need it..then abt him, i really missed those happy days when we always meet up to hv fun and enjoy ourselves..will those days be back??? i really wondered..i asked myself..after so long and all the things i had done, is it worth??? Does he really know how i feel??? Have he ever spare a thought for me???maybe yes n maybe no.. perhaps 90% no ba..maybe i am not good enough..At times, wanted to meet up..but he seems so busy..or do i really look like i am the one who is busy??? i really dun understand..i am feeling real down now..real sad..='(
i feel so sad now..haiz..dun wanna continue le..will come in to blog again some other day when i free..=(
i am hoping that one day everything will change for the better......i am missing something....