SERENE(:

Sunday, February 11, 2007
:: Too free..nothing to do.. ::

Too free after exams..no more things need to study..so kept coming in to blog..heehee..just now went to J8 with my sis to xiao zhu's autograph session..waited for so long then get the signature..then gt so many ppl kept cutting queue..but luckily xiao zhu got sign finish all..so many ppl..haha..then went up the stage, so happy..cos so near look at him..then was there for so long..cos he talked to his helper then haven't sign..so my sis n i stand there for sometime looking at him at such a near distance..haha..so happy..high man..he is so good looking and nice..gt ppl queue till almost fainted when go up the stage..then he stood up wanting to help her..haha..then his helper go over to help that lady le..so caring to his fans..so good..haha..

then after getting his signature, went to buy clothes for my sis..bought two shirts for her n it cost $42..for two..still ok lah..one yr once..ytd was quite angry with her..but after awhile not angry le..cos after all she is my sis..hmmm..if angry with her for so long also no point...haha..i not so petty de..

This few days, everytime when i free, i will think alot..cos gt nothing to do..then i will worry that i will not be able to get a job after new yr..i worry that no company will want me..so kept thinking if i should accept the job offer i mentioned the previous blogs..i so confused..dunno if i accept will be a right choice..i really dunno...want to talk to ppl abt this..but dunno who to talk to..now only managed to talk to Ms Teo abt this..then she ask me to slowly go find a job.. hope slowly can find one..if not will have no income at all..haha..so pathetic..

then also thought abt something else..i realised that i think i already have no feelings for him le..maybe that is a good thing for me n him..maybe already faded or maybe already felt that it's hopeless le..waited so long..but nothing i do seems to work..maybe just not fated to be together..abit sad..cos did so many things..then is this kind of ending..it's really so difficult to love someone..really really difficult..i gave up le..i am tired..

this monday i going to MGS to work..actually i dun feel like working..but i dunno how should i tell erica..so agreed to help..haiz..felt so packed for the coming week..then i dun like to work at MGS..cos they very rude to customer..then i dun like..later work there kanna complain..then die..i still like to work at ACS..Last Fri went back to ACS to work..then i like it alot..the feeling is so good..hmmm..but Fri got abit moody..cos i felt so hopeless..wanted to help ACS..but no time to help n cannot help much..cos i know that i will be going to MGS to work le..then maybe no need to go back ACS le..cos if found a job then leaving liao..then i wanna help but scare later help half way also not good..so abit moody..haiz..i dunno wat i am thinking..always so confused..

Also felt that i have very few friends..like everytime needed someone to talk to then find nobody to talk to..why am i so pathetic???sad..

hmmm..so late le..i still here writing crap..haha..i really think too much hor..haiz..one day i crazy then die le..heehee..k la..i go sleep le..cos i tired le..will come in to write again..good night..(",)

Where were u when i needed u most????????????

SERENE-D(x 2:33 am