SERENE(:

Sunday, February 11, 2007
:: Too free..nothing to do.. ::

Too free after exams..no more things need to study..so kept coming in to blog..heehee..just now went to J8 with my sis to xiao zhu's autograph session..waited for so long then get the signature..then gt so many ppl kept cutting queue..but luckily xiao zhu got sign finish all..so many ppl..haha..then went up the stage, so happy..cos so near look at him..then was there for so long..cos he talked to his helper then haven't sign..so my sis n i stand there for sometime looking at him at such a near distance..haha..so happy..high man..he is so good looking and nice..gt ppl queue till almost fainted when go up the stage..then he stood up wanting to help her..haha..then his helper go over to help that lady le..so caring to his fans..so good..haha..

then after getting his signature, went to buy clothes for my sis..bought two shirts for her n it cost $42..for two..still ok lah..one yr once..ytd was quite angry with her..but after awhile not angry le..cos after all she is my sis..hmmm..if angry with her for so long also no point...haha..i not so petty de..

This few days, everytime when i free, i will think alot..cos gt nothing to do..then i will worry that i will not be able to get a job after new yr..i worry that no company will want me..so kept thinking if i should accept the job offer i mentioned the previous blogs..i so confused..dunno if i accept will be a right choice..i really dunno...want to talk to ppl abt this..but dunno who to talk to..now only managed to talk to Ms Teo abt this..then she ask me to slowly go find a job.. hope slowly can find one..if not will have no income at all..haha..so pathetic..

then also thought abt something else..i realised that i think i already have no feelings for him le..maybe that is a good thing for me n him..maybe already faded or maybe already felt that it's hopeless le..waited so long..but nothing i do seems to work..maybe just not fated to be together..abit sad..cos did so many things..then is this kind of ending..it's really so difficult to love someone..really really difficult..i gave up le..i am tired..

this monday i going to MGS to work..actually i dun feel like working..but i dunno how should i tell erica..so agreed to help..haiz..felt so packed for the coming week..then i dun like to work at MGS..cos they very rude to customer..then i dun like..later work there kanna complain..then die..i still like to work at ACS..Last Fri went back to ACS to work..then i like it alot..the feeling is so good..hmmm..but Fri got abit moody..cos i felt so hopeless..wanted to help ACS..but no time to help n cannot help much..cos i know that i will be going to MGS to work le..then maybe no need to go back ACS le..cos if found a job then leaving liao..then i wanna help but scare later help half way also not good..so abit moody..haiz..i dunno wat i am thinking..always so confused..

Also felt that i have very few friends..like everytime needed someone to talk to then find nobody to talk to..why am i so pathetic???sad..

hmmm..so late le..i still here writing crap..haha..i really think too much hor..haiz..one day i crazy then die le..heehee..k la..i go sleep le..cos i tired le..will come in to write again..good night..(",)

Where were u when i needed u most????????????

SERENE-D(x 2:33 am

Friday, February 09, 2007
:: Heartache... ::

There goes my $50..Worked so hard to earn that money..gave u $100 to buy clothes n you lose the money i gave u..got to stand for like 10 hours to get that $50..n let ppl scold n humiliate for 10 hours then can get that money..n just say money lost then everything like nothing happen le..i really so heartache..if that money come so easy then i dun mind..i am really sad..already so poor le..then still like that..i worked till whole body ache..back ache like hell..also dun wanna go see doctor..cos very expensive..then save to give u that money n u lose it..gt a feeling that the money will lost..ask u dun bring to sch..but nv listen to me..just say won't lose the money..broke ur promise..tell me u will take good care of the money but in the end is like that..no one is at fault..is my fault..i purposely give the money to u so that ppl can steal..is all my fault..u r not to blame..i am the one to be blame..everytime so suay..dunno y..damn it..so frustrating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SERENE-D(x 11:43 pm

Thursday, February 08, 2007
:: 4th day after exams... ::

Ytd went to chalet.. then nv sleep for the whole night.was playing mahjong..now so tired..then went back in the morning with ravi..cos he drove there..after reached home,went to bathe..then after that went back to fuhua to look for Ms Teo..so long nv go back..so went back today..realised that nowadays kids are getting more n more rude..haiz..think last time we also not so bad towards teacher..times really change le..not like before le..so old liao..then talked to Ms Teo abt the past..really missed the past..haiz..if still in sec sch will be good..no so much worries..Ms Teo ask me to go work first then after that go study ACCA..she say like that then will treasure n study harder..i also agree with her..most probably will do that..

Then after Ms Teo went for classes, i looked for Mrs Chia n talked to her..she was asking if i could go uni..i told her that i cannot..cos results not that good..like abit disappoint her..but i told her that i will go for ACCA n do well for that..so that's my goal for now..hmmm..then after that helped Ms Hoe paint the banner for Chinese New Year..But i think i didn't do a gd job..then was talking abt the past also while we were painting..she also asked me the same qns as wat mrs chia asked..she asked if i could go to uni..i told her i can't..then she ask me y..haiz..dunno how to answer..then she asked me if is cos i nv study..hmmm..i did study..but maybe is nv work hard enough ba..but i tried my best le..will really work hard in ACCA..that is my last chance le..dunno if i should enrol in the july intake or jan intake for next yr..will decide later on..need to do some planning first..After talking to the teachers, i have clearer idea of wat i want..i always go talk to Ms Teo..cos she can give me advice..n everytime after talking to her, i not so lost le..

hmmm..i roughly gt an answer whether to reject or accept that job offer i mentioned earlier on le..just need some time to think through..

Suddenly felt so packed next week..cos still gt lots of things to prepare for new yr..need to clear house..still haven't do yet..actually just now wanna clear house..but was too tired..gt headache..nv even go for mapc..i so bad..so long nv go le..next week if have must sure go..just now slept till 11pm..still very tired..

i wanna go sleep liao..no energy to write le.. tmr then come in to write..good night..(",)

SERENE-D(x 10:43 pm

Wednesday, February 07, 2007
:: Plans... ::

Back to post..i am so tired after going out with my mum n sis..actually wanted to buy clothes just now..but nv see any that i like..so nv buy..hmmm..gt to go on my own to buy some day before new yr..haha..

In the previous blog, i said that i gt alot to say..haha..wat i meant was that i want to say all my plans for now..now i just wanna enjoy..then at the same time send email to find jobs..maybe will accept that job offer which i mentioned earlier on..but still confused..dun understand y..maybe cos just finished exams..then too sudden le..actually, i dun really wanna get a full time job..cos i still wanna continue with ACCA..i scare if i get a full time job then i won't be able to concentrate on my studies..so still thinking whether to find part time job or full time job..

Intend to enrol in ACCA for the july intake de..cos i know that if i drag too long, then i won't have the mood to study anymore..so must faster enrol n start..then can faster finish studying..heehee..hope gt the money to enrol in july intake..

Hmmm..enough of writing le..cos i very tired le..gonna sleep le..good night..(",)

SERENE-D(x 12:08 am

Tuesday, February 06, 2007
:: Finally finished all my exams!!!! ::

It's been a month since i last blog..haha..was busy preparing for exams..that's why nv blog..ytd last paper..still ok..think can pass..but abit scare MA..cos abit tricky..hope that will pass..anyway is all over..hee..not going to think abt all this le..cos now just wanna enjoy..got a job offer today..but i nv say anything..dunno is i stupid or wat..haiz..i wanna consider for some time..but i nv say..i just kept quiet..so just let it be ba..dun wanna go work so soon..wanna rest first..then prepare for new yr..after new yr then think..haha..

Hmmm..so many things to do..cos new yr coming le..need to clear the house..my house is in a total MESS!! haha..so long nv clear le..going out with mum n sis le..to buy things..so long nv go out..so happy..i like crazy le..anyway..think i got to go first..later come back then blog..cos still gt alot to say..heehee..BRB..=)

SERENE-D(x 4:55 pm