SERENE(:

Tuesday, January 16, 2007
:: THE DAY IS HERE.... ::

The day i am most afraid that it will come is here..this morning wake up then gt ppl from court come to my house..they come and seal everything in my house..then after that they will come n take our things to sell..hmmm..so sad..think my com will also be taken away..maybe this wil be the last time i using my house com to blog..cos i dunno when they will come n take away our things..really sad..knew that this would happen sooner or later..cos my dad owes the bank alot of money..so much till they coming to take all my things at home..he still say to let them seal..he said that he would settle it..everytime he said that he nv settle it..y must he lie?? y he dun go and pay the debts when he gt the money??y he must wait till this kind of things happen then he say he go settle??? i really dun understand..IAP is already a headache..n now one more problem..if the com being taken away, how r we supposed to do our projects??can anyone tell me??it's final for me..wat abt my brother??he still gt few months n alot of projects to do..think my sis will be very sad too..cos she spend most of her time with this com..then if being taken away, she will be very very sad..now is all the things in my house..then later will be the house le..soon..i really believe..

i wrote down all this here cos i gt no one to talk to..i need to get it out of me..if not i will go crazy soon..i wrote all this here not cos i want ppl to pity me..i still remember that someone who hurt me really alot..she said that i am just trying to show how pathetic i am and asking ppl to sympathy me..but i am not like that..whenever i think of her words, i felt so pain in me..i may be poor and pathetic, but i do not need anyone to pity me..cos i have hands and legs..i have backbones..i will work hard to earn money for myself, my mother, my brother n my sister..i believe that my mother n brother are also working hard to support us n themselves..so i dun need anyone to pity me..n i am not trying to get anyone to sympathy me..i am not that sort of ppl..must really thanks those who really care for me n who have helped me when i am facing any difficulties..without them, i may not be able to suvive through all the hard times..

For now, i dunno wat should i do..really lost..think now i will just study n concentrate hard for the coming exams..mustn't let all this affect me..if not i will be disappointing lots of ppl..hope that everything will be better after my exams..must really do well in my exams this time..

i am left with nothing......but glad to have a few ppl who r always there for me n encouraging me..

SERENE-D(x 10:53 am