Been hiding my true feelings..now i realised that i really can't hide it anymore..i am feeling so down now..nobody to talk to and nobody understands..everybody just cares abt themselves..family like that, then friends also like that..everyone i know seems to change now..or am i the one changing???i really dunno..last time when i feel sad and down,still gt ppl there for me n cheer me up..but now...i am all alone..no one is there for me anymore..all busy..i really can't take it anymore..going to break down le..tears keep rolling down..can't stop it..i am such a failure..worked so hard..dunno for wat..no one appreciate it..all only think of money..one month work for afew days only..then ppl keep taking from me..i am only 19..not 20plus or 30 plus..i haven't come out to work..just working part time..why torture me like that..why keep taking money from me..why bring me to this world to torture me??????? Is really not that easy to work and study at the same time..i am really tired..really..need to do projects n revisions..then still need to work..if not no money to use..if in the first place, cannot support me..then dun bring me to this world..i really can't take it le..ppl at my age gt their parents' support..dun have to worry so much..why am i so different from them??? I have to give them instead of them giving me..y????i really dunno y..do i owe them alot in my previous life???feeling so lonely and sad..anyone there for me???
then wanna go out also dunno go where n go with who..this few times keep going to west mall alone to shop..shop n nv buy things..cos dunno wat to buy..just dun wanna go back so early..ask my friends to go out with me..then all not free..so pathetic..think one day i will die of loneliness..does anyone still remember me as their friend???feeling so empty in me..... :'(
wat is wrong?????my heart feels so empty now..have i given up on him le????