So happy..finally this week is coming to an end soon..haha..cos this is really exhausting week..must wake up so early for so many days..then work till so late everyday..haha..really cannot take it..lucky later not work at 7am..is work at 8.30am..haha..if not sure tired till die..haha..got work also die..no work also die..haha..dunno how sia..if no work got money is the best ba..haha..think everyone will wish for this to happen..haha..but dun think it will happen to me..haha..
Tmr going back to ACS to work le..going back to check variance..hope can have good news..if not..dunno how..must find as much as possible to lower the variance..haha..if not like very sad..this week many things happened at work..haha..like gt rumours saying that i resign le..haha..but i didn't even know that i resign..dunno who is that idiot saying rubbish..haha..if i know who is it, then that person die..haha..how can anyhow spread this kind of rumour..haha..if go to boss how?wat they will think?so stupid..this kind of things also can spread rumour..hate it man..then monday ppl put words into my mouth again..say i volunteer to go NYGH to help on tues..but the thing is i nv even say anything abt going NYGH on tues..i dun even know where i suppose to go for tues on monday..haha..was so shock..then kanna erica say i tell ppl i going to NYGH to help then later tell her i not going..i really nv say loh..if i got say anything, i will admit..if i do wrong, i will admit..i won;t say i nv do it and push to ppl de..i am not that kind of ppl..dunno way some ppl at work just like to put words into my mouth and harm me..i am tired with all this..dunno when the hell all this ppl gonna stop their stupid and childish things n rumours..sucks man..just too tired to bother abt them..haha..always creating troubles only..haha..all the ppl all so bo liao..haha..should just shut up and do their part well can le..dun talk so much..haha..
Then next week wed getting results le..so anxious..so scare..scare that i will do badly..really hope that i can pass all..that is all i hope for now..but i think is difficult..still need to pray hard..if i fail again, i will be damn sad..really..cos this time round, i really put in all i can to do well..i really done my best..i will be very disappointed if i dun do well..i am serious..hope i won't be disappointed..all i hope for is a pass..dunno if can not..whenever i free, i will think of it..dunno y..so i rather i am busy..like at night when i free, then i will think of alot of things..haiz..
N also i still gt some things bothering me..haiz..dunno how to say..all i can say is really i miss the days..the past and that someone..really hope that nothing had changed..but..it's impossible..all change le..i think i am beginning to lose it..really..the feelings are no longer that strong le..wat should i do????give up or hang on???wat will happen if i give up and wat will happen if i hang on???i also dunno..i am so puzzled n troubled..can anyine tell me how???
I think i am really losing it....but i still miss the past alot.....='(