SERENE(:

Sunday, August 27, 2006
:: Missing the past..the days..the everything..n also U.. ::

So bored..exam finish then nothing to do..haha..too tired to play game also..haha..later got work n band..still dun wanna sleep yet..haha..so came in update blog..haha..i really missed the past..the days..the everything and also someone..haha..but wat can i do???nothing..wat is over is over..only left with memories..happy n sad memories..haha..recently kept thinking of someone i should not be thinking of..dunno wat is wrong with me..must really stop myself from doing that..cos i dun wanna hurt anyone and myself..haiz..shall not continue talking abt this..

Let's talk abt something else..haha..coming friday will be teachers' day le..anyone going back to school to look for their teachers??haha..i think i will be going back ba..probably i will go back on wed..cos wed i off..hmmm..dunno if suxian really going on wed..need to confirm with her..if not...later...dun say le..haha..specially requested an off day from work on wed..cos suxian said that she wants to go back on wed..cos she wants to go back earlier..dun wanna go back on thurs..hope she really will be going back on wed ba..if not wasted one day of work..cos will be a busy week for this two weeks..got stocktake..haha..then off one day means that will have more things to do when go back..haha..hope that i won't be disappointed again ba..hahaha..

hmmm..tmr gt band..dun feel anything leh..haha..last time will look forward..now like dun look forward that much le..i know the reason why..but not going to say here..haha..then MAPC so long nv meet up le..haha..since the day of the concert at SCH..think got more than one month le ba..haiz..miss u guys so much..hope we will meet up soon..=) Usually every sat gt practice..but now dun have..so like abit weird..like very free..nothing to do on sat..dunno wat to do and where to go..haha..feel like something is missing like that..haha..just hope we can meet up soon to play and enjoy the company of each other..haha..

My eyes wanna close le..i going to sleep le..haha..cos gt work later..need to rest le..come in again another time ba..haha..when i get to use the com..haha..=x

17 days to results..i am so scared..haha..

SERENE-D(x 3:07 am

Saturday, August 26, 2006
:: Freedom???? ::

EXAMS OVER LE!!!!! CONGRATS!!! CAN ENJOY LE..haha..but does that means freedom??i also not sure..haha..wanna enjoy but no one to enjoy with me..cos as usual, all my friends busy with their own things..no time..not free..haha..wanna go sentosa beach to play water like that time..haha..but...haiz..Although exams over le, still will think of my results..dunno if i can pass all my modules..hope i can..if not later ppl will look down on me again..tried my best for this sem le..can just hope for the best..haha..

Holidays also will be sianz..cos like nv do anything..maybe work ba..also not sure..haiz..wanna sleep as much as i can..rest as much as i can for this holiday..cos i very tired..haha..today's paper dunno how..only managed to answer some qns..cos the rest all forget le..look at the paper then cannot recall le..I SO USELESS SIA!!! Sad...

Just now went to Guiyu's house for gathering..then eat steamboat and watch harry potter and play mahjong for awhile..haha..then went back at ard 8.30pm..haha..but 11plus then reach home..cos went somewhere else first..haha..so tired now..eyes cannot open..haha..cos last night studied till 5am for CLAW..then only sleep for 2 hours..so now i very tired..hmmm..think i dun continue le..cos i very tired..then later crap alot..haha..go sleep le..haha..

Was looking at all the photos in my com..then all the memories came back..how i wish i can go back to the past..if i can go back to the past, will i make the same decision again???

SERENE-D(x 12:41 am

Wednesday, August 23, 2006
:: Hope friday will come faster..haha.. ::

Finally, the 2 weeks exam period going to end le..haha..friday will be the day to enjoy liao..haha..so happy..feeling so tired now..like kanna flu le..stay at home still ok..but when out of home then keep sneezing le..just now morning do MA1 paper that time, keep on sneezing..then run out of tissue..then hope that paper faster end..still quite happy with MA1 paper..think can do well ba..haha..except that i nv do qns 2..cos i nv study that topic..but heng nv do..if not cannot finish then die le..haha..headache now..wanna go sleep but cannot..cos need to go stucy for CLAW..if not later not enough time study finish..cannot fail for CLAW..Cos i did badly for CA2..so must do well for the exam..then can go relax after that paper on fri..haha..must jiayou le..haha..last paper..can't wait liao..

Abt the sentosa thing, already settled..called them le..so no need to bother liao..too far for me..if not can try..haha..then this sunday got band le..hope can make it on time for the band on sunday cos gt work..haha..hmmm..friday after exam like very busy..cos dunno wanna meet up with wanying to sing kbox or meet up with yuling they all for steamboat at Guiyu's house..haha..friday maybe going to airport send wanying's parents..cos they going to Australia for a 5 days..hope they will enjoy themselves there..haha..planning to go for holiday..but no money..n dunno wanna go where for holiday..stick to the plan to go genting?haha..i also dunno..haha..

Think i stop here..cos need to get back to study CLAW le..was taking a break just now..haha..time to get back to work le..jiayou wor everyone..endure for 2 more days and we will be free..=)

Finally 4 papers gone..haha..only 1 more to go..so scare..cos is CLAW..haha..

SERENE-D(x 11:47 pm

Saturday, August 19, 2006
:: How??????? ::

Dunno how???Ytd discussed with mum abt the sentosa de liao..then concluded that abit not worth going there to work..cos pay abit low and abit far..then this morning that person from sentosa called me le..i so shock..so fast..dunno how..i dun want that job le..but i dunno how to tell her..then she asked me to go for training next sunday..can anyone tell me wat to do now..send her email tell her that i will give this job a miss or call her to let her know??? Anyone can help me??haha..sad..when want to work dun have any place to work..when dun want to work, all want me to work..sianz..always like that..must think of how to let that person know i dun want that job le..haiz..shouldn't go for the interview ytd..

Why is everything like that..when i am prepared to let go of them, then they will come and find me again..haiz..Why??Why??Why??Why??

SERENE-D(x 10:36 am

Friday, August 18, 2006
:: This time die le.. ::

Today's paper think i die le..very sad..now think abt it wanna cry sia..nv finish the paper cos no time..then then all cannot balance..hope i can pass this time round..i dun wanna remain as forward module..i dun wanna stay for half more year..i tried my best..i studied hard for this paper..but the outcome still like that..i am so sad..how????If fail, dunno how to answer to my family and those who r very concern abt my studies..really hope that i can make it through this time round..3rd yr le..stay half more yr for that only module no use sia..hmmm..dunno how..worried..so worried, sad and disappointed..

Just now went out with shaun after so long..haha..really very long time nv meet..then go catch bear..caught a tortise..haha..i play first time then caught it le..so lucky..hope my exams also will so heng..haha..then now that tortise with shaun..haha..let him take back..went for dinner at causeway..then walk walk awhile then go home le..haha..cos tired..

Just now after the exam, went to interview for the sentosa job..still not bad ba..but dunno they will hire me..cos the last qns they ask me is if they give me that job, then will i quit popular job..i say must see how..so dunno if they will consider..haha..dunno why i will answer that way..haha..the pay only $5.40..gt cheated..haha..thought higher..the pay like that only like no point change job..dunno lah..wait till they call me then decide..

I am so tired..later still need to study..backache sia..haha..hope exams faster end..n hope i can pass all modules..Good Luck to all my friends who r having exams next week..jiayou wor..haha..=)

Can only pray hard that i won't fail AFA.. I already tried my best!! ='(

SERENE-D(x 10:16 pm

Wednesday, August 16, 2006
:: So fast..2 papers over le..3 more to go.. ::

Finished 2 papers le..still got 3 more to go..1 on fri, 1 on next wed and last 1 on next fri..hope can do well..abit disappointed with ytd's paper..CF paper..cos calculated wrongly..should be 0.8..but dunno why i go use 0.08 to calculate..so wasted sia..think will minus alot of marks..cos that ans for the qns is link to the other parts..so i think all the parts all wrong le..sad..always so careless..the other time so careless then kanna scolded by someone..then now careless again..sianz..later kanna scolded again..sad..tax paper on monday still not bad..think should be ok..haha..

Then this fri de AFA paper, haven't start yet..so later going to jiayou le..AFA paper not easy to pass..so must work harder..if not later fail..Fri after AFA i going to sentosa for job interview..dunno if i want that job..just go look n see how first..if i dun like then dun want ba..shuyun will be going with me too..haha..before that person call me for interview, i like very interested in that job..but after she called me, i gt abit dun wanna go le..but mama still ask me to go try out first..haha..so just go loh..

k la..dun wanna talk le..cos meeting wy to study..going to be late liao..die le..always like that..sianz..haha..k la..go off le..=)

All the best to u n me!!! I'm beginning to let go........

SERENE-D(x 5:29 pm

Friday, August 11, 2006
:: Losing my job... ::

Just now went online to apply for two jobs in sentosa de..hope can get one of them..haha..cos think i losing my job le..so must plan for myself first..haha..really hope that they will call me..then can go work at sentosa..it will be fun..haha..heard from my friend that working there is fun..so wanna go try out..maybe it's time i leave popular le ba..haha..cos not needed anymore..erica just now ask me when is my holidays.. then told her that is 26 august, she say too late le..so she asked me to call her after exams then see if she gt place to plan me in to work..so i told her, if dun hv nvm..i ownself go find a new job..cos i think no point wat..wait till after exams then later she say she gt enough ppl..dun need ppl to help le.. then i will rot for the whole holiday..wasted..so i went to apply for the job at sentosa..the pay there is higher too..haha..i think this is the best way..haha..

hmmm..but for now, think dun wanna think abt work..cos now more important is to study well for exams..haha..if not later regret..haha..didn't really studied alot for the past few days..just studied abit..haha..dunno how sia..later exam that time all dunno how to do..haha..but i will jiayou de..haha..cos i really wanna do well for this sem..then after that go have fun after exams..haha..

Guess everyone all busy studying now ba..only i down here blogging..haha..cos i need a break..haha..hmmm..everyone must jiayou together..k?cos last yr le..haha..last chance le..so dun play liao..must study hard hard le..haha..k la..i dun crap liao..cos i also going to study le..if not later is i suffer..haha..=)

STUDY, STUDY, STUDY, STUDY..(",)

SERENE-D(x 1:28 pm

Tuesday, August 08, 2006
:: Handed up IAP le..haha..so happy!!! ::

Today finally finished IAP term 2 assignment le..haha..took so long to do them..then still handed up late..dunno will minus marks not..hope won't minus too much..hmmm..got a feeling that i will not do well for the peer evaluation part..cos..haiz..nvm..haha..today's audit test, so wasted..i cannot finiah them on time..then lose 5 marks straight..sad..that will be 20marks..haiz..can just pray to do well for the rest of the modules ba..today also took back CLAW test..I FAILED that test..sad n disappointed..but..now regret no use liao..cos wat done cannot be undone..just do better for the exam..cos all the exams 50%..haha..so must jiayou..this week must work hard liao..

Then just now after sch, went to pray my ah gong with my mama..cos today is his death anniversary..then went to toa payoh with mama after that..go there walk walk awhile..then went home to have dinner downstairs with my sister..then i suggested to go rent VCD to watch..haha..we rented 'I NOT STUPID 2'..just watched finished..haha..so nice and touching..mama, bro, sis and me watch together..like that kind of feeling..haha..after dinner, wanying called me to go play mahjong..but cos mama today work half day then i say i cannot..cos wanna keep mama company..haha..so sorry to wanying..we play next time when we free..k?haha..=x

Ytd got performance at jurong west there..the place where i used to stay in few yrs ago..missed that area alot..reached there early..so went to walk around the neighbourhood first..how i wish i still stay there...i love that house alot..haha..but too bad..not up to me to choose..the performance was still ok ba..saw campus superstar there..cos they also performing..haha..but i nv take pic with them..after the performance, actually wanted to wait for lorry then bring instruments back first..but lorry 11pm then come..too late for me le..cos today got audit test at 9am..haha..so went back with kwee hong first..haha..took bus to JE mrt station then took mrt home..haha...chatted with him on the train..found that he is also quite a funny boy..haha..was talking abt band..haha..

k la..i tired le..i go sleep liao..cos tmr morning going to JE Library to study in the morning..see u all soon..BYE!!=)

3 more weeks to holidays..looking forward to it..haha..

SERENE-D(x 12:19 am

Sunday, August 06, 2006
:: Finally!!!! ::

Finally, IAP gonna end soon for term 2..hope next sem will be better..haha..so stressed up for the few days..then keep having flu..haiz..sianz..like nv recover at all since the other time..hope that after my exams, can have some break..haha..break from school projects..haha..then enjoy abit..

This few days, gt one qns keep popping up in my mind..if i should continue or not???i am lost..i dunno wat i should do..no one can help me..cos only i know myself the best..been thinking of this qns for the past one and a half years..but still no answer..haiz..maybe i should have stopped in the first place then i won't.......but.......haiz...dunno how to explain lah..when will i know my answer???Do i have to wait forever??

Maybe i shouldn't think that much..just be true to myself..haha..follow my heart..do wat i think is best for me..like wat shuyun say..i live my own way..haha..hmmm..i know that my sister very sad..cos her hp cannot use le..cos father nv help her pay bills..then wanted to buy M card for her..but i not enough money..so dunno how..see her so sad i also dun feel good..but...wat should i do???if only i gt enough money..haiz...cynthia..dun be sad,k?i try my best to buy u a M card..k?but no promise..will try my best de..k??

hmmm..today gt sound check for band...reminded me of MAPC's last yr de nationaly day performance..dunno how everyone is doing..hope that everyone is still doing fine..missed everyone so much...hope to see them soon..hmmm.today, overall still ok..but..something happened that i dun really feel that good..='( but..haiz..won't continue..cos everytime when things happened, the more u talk abt it, the more things will happen..haha..tmr working at ACS..quite happy..still like to work at ACS alot..haha..all my memories there..haha..later go sleep and tmr will be a better day ba..that's wat yumin always say..heez..so must look forward for tmr..(",)

monday gt test..but still nv study..tmr still got performance..dunno how sia..haiz..the next week worst..cos gt esplanade beautiful sunday performance..then the next day is taxation exam..dunno why i still play for band on that day..hope i can complete my revision before sunday ba...='(

When will my birthday wish come true???or it will nv come true at all??

SERENE-D(x 12:43 am

Friday, August 04, 2006
:: DUN LOOK DOWN ON ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ::

HOW?HOW?HOW? IAP monday need to hand up..still haven't post to ACCPAC...die le..just feel that we are wasting our time..haiz..dunno lah..dun wanna say so much..later like the other time that incident with mike..Feeling so frustrated..not that i can't balance the trial balance..but cos of other things..I need everyone's trust..if all dun trust wat i do, then wat's the point of asking me to do those things, i really know wat i am doing..just hope that ppl dun look down on me cos i am a forward module student..so wat if i am one????i am already trying my best to do all the things well..i became forward module not cos i am stupid..is cos i am lazy..i nv study for that module the other time..but still forward module should be given a chance..right????i dun get y i always get questioned by ppl for wat i do in the project..i think i did my part correctly!!!!i am very sure..cos i asked mrs lee after i finished my part..y can't ppl trust me and continue with their own parts??????I REALLY DUN UNDERSTAND!!!!!! So pissed and frustrated..everyone is human beings..everyone did something wrong before..n so everyone should be given a chance to change..dun u all agree??? dunno how i should continue!!!!i am so stressed..no one understands..ppl just think that i cannot make it..so always pick on me..i really dunno wat ppl wants now..and wat i should do now..think i should just continue with my parts and think avbt the rest after monday..

trying my best to do all the things well..need trust!!! Pls dun look down on me cos i am a forward module!!!! i will prove to u that i can do it!!!!!!

SERENE-D(x 9:52 am

Tuesday, August 01, 2006
:: Tired, tired, tired... ::

Now is 2.40am and i am still awake doing IAP..haiz..sad..so many things to do for IAP..dunno if can finish on time..then still got alot of things to study also..all haven't study yet..exams two more weeks only..then next monday is audit..hope got time to study..cos this sat gt sound check, then sun gt national day performance..so many things always come at one time..haiz..muz try my best to cope..haha..but very tiring...

hmmm..sunday i went for band..then Mrs Chua said something very good..she said that 'she knows everybody is stressed up and tired with work, school and band..we r all human beings..we only live once..so we must live the best of our one life'..haha..i think this is really true..so must do well for everything no matter how stressed up and tired we are..like that then we will live the best of our one life..hmmm..so everyone jiayou..k?soon will be exam..then will be holidays le..then can enjoy liao(hope that i will enjoy working during holidays) =x ..haha..

Sunday night slept for 12 hours..haha..cos after band i not feeling well..gt migriane..after band, go eat dinner at JE, then took a cab home..cos head very pain..abit giddy also..then in the end, reached home vomitted..haiz..mama say is cos not enough sleep..

ytd (Monday) i gt back my TAX1 CA2 paper..very disappointed with myself..cos alot of careless mistake..so in the end gt 60 marks only..lower than mike..expected a higher marks..but in the end gt 60 only due to carelessness..so sad..must do well for the exams then can..haha..if not i will be very disappointed with myself again..wed then get back AFA1 CA2..hope that i will pass..cos my CA1 fail..got 28 marks out of 100 marks..if CA 2 also fail, then confirm my stay in poly for the forth yr le..so must pray hard..so worried..tmr sch end very early..actually thinking of going to work..but...need to do IAP..so nv go..haiz..hope tmr will do alot for IAP..if not sure pek cek..cos no money..then still nv go work and still nv do alot for IAP..haha..so tmr must jiayou le..(",)

Think i go continue with IAP le..then later morning gt stupid MA1 tutorial..i hate it..i hate that class and the lecturer..lucky tmr last lesson liao..k la..gtg le..bb..=)

Be true to urself..Always do wat u think is best for u..so that u won't regret in future..(",)

SERENE-D(x 2:44 am