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Thursday, June 22, 2006
:: Congrats!!! ::

haha..finally the match between portugal vs mexico over le..n it's "2-1"..haha..congrats..haha..so nervous sia just now..over le..haha..can go sleep in peace le..k la..gtg le..haha..nitez to all..haha..(",)

SERENE-D(x 12:12 am

Wednesday, June 21, 2006
:: Counting down to school reopens... ::

Hmmm..still gt a few more days to school reopens..haha..can't wait le..so sian at work..haha..but this week more life..cos after work, at least gt go out..monday went out with mama..cos she work half day..then went to bet on soccer..cos suddenly got the instinct to bet on spain vs tunisia..haha..bought only $10..then in the end won..haha..heng sia..was so worried that spain will lose..cos is my favourite team..but lucky last 20 mins scored three goals..jiayou spain!!!haha..mad le..

then tues went jogging with shaun..haha..ran till wanna die sia..think not even 2.4km..then we both dying le..NAFA Test coming le..still like that..die le..must jiayou more le..then after running, go to the park to play..haha..then we do sit ups..shaun do pull up..haha..he still not bad managed to do 3 for pull up..haha..Hope his NAFA can get silver..then dun have to go NS earlier..haha..if not later i very sian..no one to go out with..haha..=x

Then today met shaun again..we finally go eat sakae sushi..haha..waited for this day for so long..haha..ate till damn full..very happy..the food so nice...haha..next time must go eat again..haha..when got money..then after that go ah ma house..abit pissed off..cos ah ma asked me to bring so many things home..My bag was so heavy le sia..then still bring so many things..hands wanna break le..sad..back ache also..cos of the heavy bag..pathetic..go change coins for tmr's work..total $60 of coins..carry till so tired..haha..then intended to go buy soccer before going home to watch da chang jin..last le..haha..then boght portugal vs mexico..i buy 2-1..total goals 3..now the score is 2-1..hope they dun goal anymore..haha..i so excited till wanna die le..5 mins more only..must pray hard..haha..

Hmmm..think i dun say le..go see the score le..good luck to me n xiao min..haha..=)

SERENE-D(x 11:27 pm

Saturday, June 17, 2006
:: Tired of living??? ::

Dunno y recently like feeling so sad and lonely..this holiday seems so long to me..did nothing for the past few days..just work le then go back home rot..friends all not free to go out with me..hate to stay at home alone..but everybody seems so busy to even bother abt me..so sad n pathetic..haiz..The past few school holidays like always end so fast..then always go out play n hv fun..but this time round nv step out of house to enjoy myself at all..just step out of house to work..

Today went for class BBQ..still ok ba..but tired..quite late then go home..hmmm..think just reached home an hour ago ba..lucky still gt train..cos at pasir ris..kept coughing ever since i came back from the bbq..think is too hot there ba..plus this morning nv bring umbrella to work..then ran in the heavy rain to work..my whole body was wet by the time i reached the sch..then was in the aircon place for four hours..think my flu and cough will get worst soon..really sick of being sick le..kept seeing doctor..then no money le..haiz..this month really damn poor..sob..

Haiz..i like sound so sianz..this few days actually gt quite alot of things happened at home and outside..No one to talk to..No one to tell my problems to..No one bothers..='( maybe cos of that then like so sianz..i am feeling so tired..hope that i can just close my eyes to rest and nv wake up again..maybe that may solve all the problems..cos i want to solve the problems..but can't seems to be able to do it..like so difficult..

Can u tell me what went wrong???? I am so puzzled by all that had happened in the past one month...If only u could understand how i feel n know wat i am thinking...How i wish i can stay in the past...

SERENE-D(x 1:21 am

Sunday, June 11, 2006
:: Another sunday gone..haha.. ::

Today very early wake up le..cos go eat breakfast with mama..she say i sick..so must go eat breakfast then can go work..so no choice..then go eat..but only eat half bowl of the noodles..cos no appetite..maybe is too early or cos take medicine..i also dunno..then go work..after that..reached ACS still very early..9.15am reached le..sianz..haha..cos tooo early..then stay in store do paperwork loh..if not later bee har come back kill me..haha..today gt so many ppl asking for books that we do not have stocks in the store..then in the end..called so many outlets repeatedly..like so irritating sia..haha..but get to know one more person from orchard popular..haha..still not bad..=x

then after work, rush down to band..was raining heavily...then in the end took a cab from jurong east..cos very late le..told jennifer i will reach at 3pm..but in the end reached at 3.30pm..so treat her to drink..band was still alright today..but played wrongly for some parts..went in too early..played alot of new piece today also..haha..had fun..then after band, went to eat at around 7plus..haha..was so hungry by then..dunno y..haha..then reached home at 9plus..felt so tired..wanna sleep but com was so tempting so sat down to use com..haha..use till now..haha..was chatting with yuling..n crapping with her..haha..funny..haha..

thought of tmr gt work then sianz..cos is work at NYGH..alone somemore..no one to talk to..4 hours sia..can die..face 4 walls..will go on like that for the next 2 weeks..dunno how to survive..wanna take off..go enjoy..but dunno take which day better..haha..k la..dun say le..tired liao..go eat medicine then abt time to sleep liao..of not tmr cannot wake up..then die..haha..nitez..(",)

SERENE-D(x 11:45 pm

Saturday, June 10, 2006
:: Must Concentrate.. ::

Hmmm..still sick..today like worst..cough non-stop..think will see a doctor later before going for MAPC practice..concert coming..still so slack..haiz..then or band, competition coming..but still...haiz..i dunno lah...feel like giving up..regretted..but no choice..wat done cannot be undone..just try my best ba..

Had been thinking for the past few days..haiz..maybe i should just concentrate on studies and nothing else..at least i will see results from my studies if i work hard..n i will not get hurt..hmmm..dun wanna be bothered by that anymore..for now, i think, my studies and health will be more important than anything..so i must jiayou again le..Less than a year to graduate..maybe will lead a better and happier life after that ba..hope so..sometimes, come to think of it, maybe i already very lucky le..got so many ppl around me that cares for me..like my classmates, wanying, my family, cousins, my teachers in sec sch, my friends at work..especially wanying, who will always be there to cheer me up and brighten my day when i am sad..Thankz a million to wanying and all of u who cares for me..dun worry so much for me..k?i will be fine soon..haha..wounds take time to heal..haha..i am healing le..so dun worry..

Hmmm..two more weeks start school again le..so many projects haven't do...so must buck up le..gt audit project 2, gt IAP and gt lots of test coming my way..haha..must work hard and do well..haha..dun disappoint anyone..haha..n most importantly, dun disappoint myself..haha..think must start project next week..but gt work everyday..haiz..so think can only meet up with my groups after work which is around 2pm..haha..so sorry ah..need to work..cos my dad only give me $150 per month from now on..dunno wat's wrong with him..keep cutting my allowance..from $300 to $150..sad..then need to pay my hp bills, my bus concession and my daily expenses..so no choice got to work..if not, sure cannot survive with only that $150..hope u all will understand..need to ask when my group members when they are free to meet up first..haha..anyway i am soooo free now..nothing to do..haha..

maybe later will go sleep for awhile more..cos not feeling well..need to rest well mah..if not later cannot recover fast..haha..haiz..wrote so many craps today..haha..think stop here le..cos dunno wat else to write..going to eat breakfast/lunch le..hungry..haha..

I know wat i should do le..........must always remember to be true to myself............

SERENE-D(x 1:40 pm

Thursday, June 08, 2006
:: I'm feeling so hurt.. ::

I 'm feeling so hurt..no one will understand how i feel now..can only say that i am stupid ba..perhaps u feel that i am very irritating ba..others will be better..sobx..='(

I think it's time i..................................................

SERENE-D(x 10:16 pm

Wednesday, June 07, 2006
:: Sick, sick and sick ::

Haiz..sick for very long le..for one week liao..since last thurs..getting from bad to worst sia..dunno when will recover..sad..miserable..for the past few days din really do alot of things..cos not feeling well..lucky now school term break liao..if not think i will mc all the way le..hmmm..now can relax abit..cos IAP presentation just finished..but think i didn't do well..want to say sorry to my group..haiz..think my peer evaluation ranking also not that good..hope i am not ranked the last..i really tried my best for IAP le..but dun seems to see any good results leh..dunno y..maybe everyone's expectation very high ba..sobx..must try harder next term..

Hope i will get well soon..cos i wanna do alot of things for this term break..hope i can finish doing all the things..then everyday still got work..so sianz..although is from 9am to 1pm..but still very sianz..really gt nothing to do..no customers, no sales, no stocks, no paperwork..just me n another part timer..haha..then today erica called to ask if we got sales..then told her very poor..so she thinking of cutting manpower..but she still haven't say..juz wait n see ba..tmr not working..cos i am feeling so sick..so i told erica..then in the end poor leonard gt to stand i for me..actually, he dun need to work tmr n friday..but i sick..so he will go tmr..haha..thankz alot to leonard..haha..today actually dun wanna go work..cos ytd fever..then ate two panadols at wanying's house..then felt better after that..haha..think i passed my sickness to wanying..she now also cough n flu le..hope she get well soon too..haha..if not i feel so guilty..spread to her..haha..then ytd night went to meet jonathan for dinner..cos he say he eat alone very sianz..then just go accompany him loh..haha..no harm also..just that i abit sick..then after he finished eating, we went home le..haha..cos quite late le by then..haha..need to sleep early..haha..

Today also wanna sleep earlier..cos finally can take off from work..haha..really need a good rest..think overworked myself for the past few weeks..that's why sick so long haven't ok..haha..dunno if tmr wanna go see doctor again not..cos still haven't ok..haha..but dunno go where see..cos the clinic i always go is closed..the doctor went on holiday this friday then come back..haha..dunno can wait till fri..or go bukit timah there see..hmmm..later ask my mama ba..haha..then tmr also need to do elearning..cos friday last day le..haha..later no marks..must jiayou le..haha..hmmm..dunno wat to say le..just feel so bored..something is missing in my life..i know wat is it..but cannot say..haha..k la..i go rest le..bye..come in another day to write..haha..

To give up or not?? Hmmm..This is a very difficult decision to make..i dunno how..So Lonely...=x

SERENE-D(x 9:00 pm

Thursday, June 01, 2006
:: Having IAP lessons.. ::

Haiz..now is IAP lesson but i side track abit..come write blog..must take a break awhile..haha..i am so bored..today only shuyun and me in IAP..cos jonathan n huijiao both sick..then gt mc..i actually also sick..then gt mc..but still came for IAP..so tired after eating the medicine..wanna sleep liao..later gt AFA 1 test..but i not going..cos i am not feeling well..scare later din do well..cos now having headache, sore throat and flu sia..gt back most of my results for CA1 except for company law..i think..hmmm..so far still ok..not disappointed with my results..at least got see something in return..haha..

IAP still got so many things haven't do sia..dunno how..monday presentation must hand in business plan report le..but the business plan report still like cannot make it..haven't even let teacher see...told her that we will show her tmr..cos still need to touch up abit..haiz..think tonight dun nid to rest liao..cos i still need to do the executive summary..hope jonathan faster send me his marketing plan ba..then i can faster finish it...still got the jonarnal entries haven't write..n the powerpoint slides..hell man!!!really regret taking IAP sia..but no choice since i in it le, then must put in my best effort..if not like let myself down..haha..

tmr is the deadline for audit project 1..almost finish le..hope can faster finish..then can relax abit..haha..so stress..hmmm..this few days i everytime after school stay back do project then after that went home straight..nv go out..also nv meet shaun to study..haha..actually say this week wanna meet up to study..but so many projects to do..then not feeling well..so keep staying at home..haiz..dunno tmr shaun free to meet up to study not..haha..tonight then ask ba..

Now feeling so hungry also..dunno y..maybe cos of the medicine ba..haha..everytime like that..haiz..k la..dun write anymore..must go jiayou and do finish business plan le..if not tonight no need to sleep liao..haha..come blog another day..haha..(",)

SERENE-D(x 3:01 pm