Just went back to work about 2 weeks ago..Quite busy since back to work..cos gt a lot of requisition to do..but still ok at least gt public holidays..Back still ok..not as pain as before the operation..less numbness but still will feel the aching and pain at the end of the day after work..i guess my back takes time to heal ba..hopefully with swimming and physiotherapy I can get better soon..=p
Friday, December 04, 2009
It’s been quite awhile since I blogged..not very busy but just lazy to blog..hmmm..after a month of rest at home, finally going back to work soon on Monday.. Hopefully everything will be alright when I get back to work..Hopes that no one would create trouble or make things difficult for me..Hospitalization leave for 1 month is also not what I wanted.. Just that cos I needed time for my back to recover and feel better before going back to work as we are talking abt one’s spine..if it get worst, it could affect the rest of my life..However, I would like to thank all who had supported me, encouraged me during this period!! Must also thanks Janet for her understanding and support..was really quite touch to receive ur msg!! Thanks!=)
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Haven't updated my blog for abt two months..so it's time for me to update..=)
Friday, September 18, 2009
Today finally went back to work after the 2 weeks MC after the operation..still dun feel that well today but managed to get through the day with the help of all my colleagues!! thanks everyone at BTB for all ur help today!! Though i MC for 2 weeks and caused all of u to be more tired, u all help me throughout the day today..really appreciate that!! thanks everyone..i will try to recover soon!! hopefully i will get better soon!! i dun wanna be a burden to all..hahaha..then today went back to work and counted the no of days i would be working in sept and found out that excluding sat, i will only be working for 9 days in the month of sept..dunno if it's good or bad..=)
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
It's already a month since I am back from WMC 2009 held in Kerkrade..That was really a nice trip..enjoyed myself alot there..had lots of fun with everyone in my section and everyone in Mus' Art!! Had yet to upload the photos as the photos still in my bro's laptop..nv take from him..maybe will get it from him later..was quite busy after i am back from WMC.. Busy with work n school..
Monday, July 13, 2009
1.5 months nv blog le..cos damn busy everyday..work till so tired..nothing much happened in june..just that i gt my driving license on 2nd june..haha..finally..failed 2 times..n 3rd time finally pass le..haha..so now qualified to drive le..=)
Friday, May 29, 2009
Hmmm..so fast May going to end le..Feeling abit frustrated..dunno y..Lots of things like not going very smoothly for me..Like work, health n school all like not that good..haiz..
This few days feeling abit down..cos msg and call him, he nv reply me..dunno if he is avoiding me or he is busy in army..Can’t help but kept thinking of him..I somehow have this bad feeling that he will patch up with his ex..Dunno y but I just feel this way..When he dun msg me for a few days, I will start to think of him..but when I tried to call or msg him, he also nv answer call or reply my msg..so getting very confuse..dunno wat he is thinking..Wat I should do? =(
Today is Christmas eve..at first asked him if he wants to go out on Christmas eve, then he says need to confirm again..but till now no msg from him..i guess he forgot abt it and had plans for himself le..Then just now Shaun asked if wanna go out and since I gt no plans, I agreed to go out with him..If Shaun just now nv ask me out, then I will be alone at home le..so sad hor..Christmas eve and I stay alone at home..=X
Just finished helping my mei mei with baking of cookies for her colleagues at my uncle’s company..hahaha..the colour of the cookies dun look very nice..but still pass I guess…still edible..hahaha..hope that they dun mind and like the cookies..=p
Getting very late le..going to sleep le..cos tmr still working till 3.30pm..3/4 days..hahaha..i guess the bank later should be quite crowded..so going to rest soon..hahaha..if not later very tired cannot concentrate..Would like to wish all my friends Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!! Enjoy the public holidays!! (“,)
Thinking of u..
:: Finally going back to work!! ::
During this 1 month of rest, I had been trying my best to recover fast by actively going for physiotherapy and also swimming. But I guess the speed of recovery is still slow, however, I am quite grateful to my physiotherapist who had been helping me along the recovery and who had given me lots of support to slowly improve my condition..Though I feel that my back and leg are still quite weak, but I believe I am improving slowly..Dun feel as useless as before as I can see slight improvements now..Really hopes that my back will recover fast and not get worst as I had wasted so much time and money on my back..=P
Just got my results ytd, managed to clear all but still not very satisfied as I could have done better..Really studied hard for this exam and can really see some results in my studies this time round..So I will do better next semester!! I will study harder next semester as I wanna get a degree with good grades..this makes a great difference when u go out to find a job..=)
About 27 days to 2010!! Looking forward to 2010 as I believe that it will be a better yr for me and everyone ard me!! My studies, health and career will be better next yr!! (“,)
:: Just a little update after abt 2 months..=) ::
The previous blog was updated after my 1st back surgery..Just went for my 2nd surgery on my spine last week on 4th of Nov and was hospitalised for a week and discharged on the 5th of Nov..First time warded in hospital..felt scare but no choice..cos the pain is so unbearable..hmmm..dun wanna go home right after the surgery and later need to rush back to A&E during midnight..so i chose to stay there a night at least there are nurses and doctors there to take care of me and help if i am in pain..The operation was pain but was glad that i survived it le..hahaha.the experience was worst than the previous surgery..more pain..After this surgery, I had to keep lying down and take painkiller..cos is super pain..Only felt better today and managed to sit down for awhile more than the previous few days after the surgery..Now still on MC till next week..Hopefully will recover and be able to go back to work and band soon!!=p
Just finished exams on the 2nd of Nov..studied real hard this time for the exams..but dunno if i would be able to pass the exams..cos didn't managed to finish the papers for all the modules..hopefully will be able to pass..cos i really put in alot of effort this time...my sis said that this is the only time she sees me so hardworking eversince i completed my 'O's..haha..i also somehow agrees with her..this time round i really studied..so hope that my results will be good..dunno when the results will be out..maybe not so soon..cos exams just eneded last week for all..=)
It's been quite some time since i write my blog..so dunno wat to write le..hahaha..too long nv write..then brain rusty le..
Hmmm..
Oh..before i forget, i wanna thanks all who had supported me all the way and thanks all who had showed lots of care and concern to me during this period!! Thanks alot to Mus' Art Committee as well for ur understanding, care and concern..=p
:: Finally back to work after 2 weeks of rest!!! ::
Dun really feel well this few days..kept on vomitting, feeling giddy, having blur visions and having headaches..dunno wat's wrong with me..dunno if it's the side effect of the operation..or is my gastric that is giving me the problem..or is it the pain killer that is giving that side effect..i also dunno..like wat ching said..the whole body just dun feel well..hahaha..hope will get better soon..hahaha..cos need to start studying hard le..in order to do that, i must be well..so that i can concentrate better..hmmm..n medical bills now very exp..so the faster i get better, the less i will spend..hahaha..=)
Soon Sept will end and Oct will come..looking forward to Oct!! cos Brother going to ROM..so happy for him and his gf..they are finally getting married..hahaha..After Sept, three more months to 2010..Haven't achieved much this yr..in fact, i think this yr is not a very good yr for me..cos my health not very good this yr..having backache since the start of the yr, then later found out that it's slipped disc, then went for operation..somemore found out that i have this inherited blood disorder called thalassemia..this blood inherited blood disorder causes my body to produce less hemoglobin..but mine is minor..still ok..just that my future husband can't have this if not the chances of my child having a major one is high..but i believe everything will be fine!!! other than that, studies at first also gt problem..at first almost can't study at SIM, RMIT..cos of my loan..but luckily managed to get the loans..=) then work also very pek cek..have a very 'helpful' manager who sits there and do nothing but just nagged..think this yr's appraisal gone..hahaha..but hopefully the travel insurance thing for Mus' art will help abit..
Though this 3 quarter of 2009 is not very smooth sailing for me, i still have 3 more months to achieve wat i want..there is alot of things i have yet achieved..the slipped disc had somehow restricted me from achieving more things..but i hope as i am recovering after the operation, things will pick up and i will be able to work towards wat i want..must really study hard..cos i dun want to disappoint my mum, bro, sis and those who r always there to support me..haven't been doing well for studies..but i will work hard this time..cos i know this is my last chance to do well and not disappoint everyone!! i have ard 1 month more to study before the exams..must also thanks my friends in class for always helping me with taking of notes when i can't make it for classes due to work and during my absence when i went to holland for WMC and also during the last 2 weeks when i am resting at home after my operation..thanks huizhen, ben, jie xiong and wei hao for all the understanding and help!!=) Let's all jiayou for our exams!!
The things i had achieve so far only very little..At least i finally gt my driving license after like 3 tries..hahaha...and i also went with Mus' Art Wind Orchestra to WMC 2009 held at holland and managed to get a score of 85.58 which is best among all the other S'pore bands who had participated in the competition as well..can't believe we did it and can't believe that i actually went with them for the 2nd time already..hoping to go there to compete the 3rd time 4 yrs later..but nobody will know wat will happen 4 yrs later..but for now i still would like to continue playing in Mus' Art..i learnt alot there and improved alot there..happy to have a group of fun loving percussion section!!! I love all of u!! hahaha.. thanks for making all things possible..without ur hardwork, the percussion section won't have improved!!! Think i can only think of this two things which i had already achieved in this 3 quarter of 2009..
Things i would like to achieve in the next three months is to get good grades for my studies and also to achieve more at work!!! Having worked at BTB for abt 2 yrs and 4 months, i felt that i actually acheive very little things..how i wish catherine and soo kiong were still ard..with them ard, i believe i would have achieved more than wat i have now..at least i would have been more motivated to work hard with them ard..cos under their leadership, i am able to learn and progress more..as they r really very understanding and always willing to help and listen to us when we needed helped..i really missed the times when soo kiong and catherine were ard..I missed both of u and i also missed all my colleagues who had left BTB for a better future like Jean, Bel, Janice and Cheryl..that is when i really enjoyed working at BTB..But no point talking abt all this now..it's all over...so i have to move on and try to do better at work..so studies and work is the 2 areas i would focus on for the coming 3 months..so think i will be very busy in Oct.. cos Oct i will be busy preparing for exams and work..after Oct will be slightly better as i can concentrate all on work and do well..cos exams over and no more classes till january 2010..
OK!! That's all i wanna say..a very long post..getting more and more long winded as days past by..meaning i getting older and older liao..oh no..hahaha..tired le..going to rest after taking my medications..tmr still need to work..will post again when i am free!! =)
Do u think we will have a chance to be together?? =p
:: 1 month after WMC and 7th day after spine surgery.. ::
Right after i am back, i was busy with school class test, assignments and also work..cos need to do that ordering thing which i stopped doing since i left for holland..then after came back from holland, went to see result for my MRI scan for my spine and was diagnosed with slipped disc at my lower back..and went to see the spine surgeon who told me that i needed a minor surgery..that was also part of the reason why i was so busy..as i need to settle school and work before going for the surgery on 2nd sept..so was really damn busy since i was back from holland..
Had the surgery last wed..though it was only a day surgery, it was quite scary..reported to Alexandra Hospital on 2nd Sept @ 1.30pm..changed into the hospital gown, waited for someone from the operation theater to bring me to the theater..the surgery was supposed to start at 2pm..but somehow there was a delay..then waited till like 2.45pm..then walked over to the operation theater.. waited for them to prepare the operation table..then about 3.15pm, was given some jab on my wrist..dunno wat's that..only know that it was quite painful..soon after, the surgery started..i was awake throughout the procedure.. n the whole procedure was very painful..especially when the needle is halfway into the spine..that was the most painful experience i had..but finally the procedure was over..my left leg were numb and pain..was not able to move my leg after the procedure due to the numbness..then was pushed out of the theater and rested for quite some time before i was pushed back to the day ward.. by the time i was back to the day ward, it was abt 5.30pm..had to rest there for 2 hours before i could be discharged..was still experiencing some pain when it was abt 7.15pm..n the nurses told me that if my pain nv subsides, i can't go back..luckily after taking painkiller and resting for awhile more, i felt less pain and could discharge n go home..so discharge at 7.45pm and went home on that day itself..=p
When back home, still felt the pain n stiffness..even till now, still abit pain..but better than the day i was back home already..hmmm..can't really sit, stand and walk for long cos still not fully recovered..still felt the stiffness in the back and numbness in the leg..hopefully will recover soon..then can faster go back to work..cos feel so bad..last month took two weeks leave to holland then this month mc 2 weeks again..so paiseh..cause everyone to work so hard at work..so sorry BTB..will come back as soon as i recover and feel better..thanks everyone for all the care, concern and support..=p
Must really thanks my sis n mum..cos they have to help me with lots of things for this few days..hahaha..thanks my familly and friends for all the support..i will get well soon de!!=p
:: Happy July!!=p ::
Other than getting my license in June, nothing happening in june le..haha..But i love this month..though is busy but i enjoyed and look forward to it..
1st)
cos in two weeks time, i will be flying over to holland with Mus' Art Wind Orchestra for WMC le..WMC is stands for World Music Contest held evry 4 yrs..went once in 2005..enjoyed myself though fell from the stairs there that causes my slipped disc now..overall i still had great fun there in 2005.. Hope this time round will have more fun..haha..cos going with a totally different group of ppl in my section!! I am so excited over this whole thing..OMG!!!=)
2nd)
My closest friend, Wanying is back from Australia!! Though not much time to meet up, but happy to at least see her once a week!!hahaha..going kbox tmr!! happiest thing for both of us..waited so long for this le..=)
3rd)
Started school @ SIM this month..waited so long for a chance to go study there..finally took the study loans from maybank and went to study..lecture is boring but still can manage..know a new friend in class..working in uob..so qiao..went to class and realised that Jonathan also went there to study..it's a small world..same class in SP, Kaplan and now SIM..haha..at least gt friends there..will study hard this time round..cos no more time to waste le..not young anymore..=)
4th)
Shaun started work at Bukit Timah Plaza!! Same place as me..though not the same company but able to have lunch together and go back together..no longer feel lonely..haha..dun need to eat alone..gt someone to talk to when go home and lunch..then can listen to me complaint abt work..hahaha..my dear friend, thanks ah!! haha..working at BTP is no longer so boring le..Hope we will enjoy ourself at holland in two weeks time..cheers!!hahaha..counting down le..n thanks for listening to my compaint ah!!haha..=)
5th)
Mus' Art Wind Orchestra 10th anniversary le..so happy to be able to play in the 10th anniversary concert held on coming sunday at 5pm at esplanade..=) I joined them for 5 yrs le..OMG..i old liao..haha..hmmm..hope my friends who r free can come support us..cos tix sales not very good..one more week to go..i dun wanna play to empty esplanade concert hall..dun wanna to celebrate the 10th anniversary this way!! Hope all of u can support us!! thanks ah..concert name is "decade". tix priced @ S$15..must add another S$1 booking fee..=) time is 19/07/09 @5pm..venue is esplanade concert hall..thanks ah!! tix sold at sistic!! hurry go buy..hahaha..i first time so desperate to sell tix..hahaha..hope we will do well for the concert n competition at holland..=)
6th)
Happy that the percussion section now is so united and fun..had our first section outing today..was ok..=) had lunch then went band together..really happy to have all of you in the section..thanks alot for all the hard work!! Hope we will do well and continue to stay on with the band after the competition.. dun leave kailing n me alone..haha..so many ppl come n go during my 5yrs with MWO..that's why our section always nv improve..cos always change ppl..difficult to improve if keep changing..so do stay on n have fun..k? n lastly let's have more section outing and more fun in holland!!=)
7th)
Mum is finally going for the operation for her leg..this will solve her problem of leg pain..so is something to be happy abt..cos at least she will be better after the op..just pray hard that everything will be alright..which i know that she will definitely be alright!! when she recover, can bring her go tour le..no need to worry abt her leg..but hope she will take care after that n work less..mum, i love u..=)
8th)
Brother n her gf finally getting married soon and gotten their own flat..so happy for them..see them so sweet together..sometimes wonder when will be my turn..haha..hope they have kids soon then i can take care for them..haha..cos i love kids!!=)
See! i gt so many things to be happy abt in the month of july..8 things to be happy abt..i am sure more happy thing will come..=)haha..
n just now went to jurong point with shaun to meet his family to eat and shop..hahaha..his parents treat me to jia xiang mee..haha..not bad..first time eat..=) must thanks his parents..u all must try..really..haha..shaun, help me thanks ur parents ah!!=)
Later no work..cos on leave..so can stay up to blog..haha..think i going to sleep le..cos later going for physio for my back @JMC @ 8am..super early..so better go sleep now..haha..if not tmr can't wake up..wrote such a long post..haha..so long till shaun wait untill go sleep liao..haha..sorry ah!! i super long winded..cos 1.5 months nv blog and so many happy things to update everyone!!! haha..
K la.. i go sleep le..if gt time will update new post again..good night..n hope to see all of u in my concert "decade" with Mus' Art Wind on 19th July @5pm @ Esplanade ah!! Thanks for supporting ah..=p
Will there be a chance for us to be together?=p
:: Feeling abit frustrated.... ::
First is work..WORK is getting more n more frustrating..wanna leave but can't get a job..haiz..more n more things to do at work but no one can help..all u get is trouble..Everyday will sure have something from my manager asking me to settle..haiz..so many payments to make..i also dunno how to make the payments..just throw all to me n expect me to settle..need to go out cover the counter n need to help her settle all the shit payments..all the payments need to call to check how i could make payments..cos i had nv done all this before..i dunno who can help me..but i doubt anyone could help me..haiz..sometimes not that i dun want to faster settle the payments..is that i gt no time to call to check how to make payment..if stay in the backroom to check, the manager will start nagging, telling u to go out cover the counters..i really dunno how..after work tried to call the depts, all left office le.. then how to do all the things..wat the hell..all she do is ask u why havent make payment..why can't she help to check how to make payment..whole day in the office dunno do wat..keep talking to ppl like everyone so free to entertain her..i really dunno wat is wrong with my new manager..when ask her things, she just keep talking n talking but nothing useful came out from her mouth..without her around, things can be settled faster..haiz..think of work really damn sianz..everytime off / leave sure got call to ask u to go back to work..wat the hell..ppl take leave or off for fun meh? confirm gt something on then will apply leave or take off mah..i too free nothing to do then purposely go take leave dun go work ah..crazy..taking leave already so difficult to get le, get le still kanna call back, like that how to clear leave..hopefully tmr they can let me go on leave peacefully..dun call me to ask me to go back..
Next thing is that my back is worrying me..haiz..went for physiotherapy today..then my physiotherapist told me that my back is getting worst.. though i dun feel the pain so often le but i experience numbness from my back to my toes..so she told me that this numbness that i experience is not a good sign..hmmm..i also dunno how..haiz..hopefully will improve with physio..but i gt no time to go..the next appt is one month later..cos cannot take leave at work to go..they gt slots for earlier dates but i can't take leave..so can't make it..haiz..if this goes on, i dunno how..i was told to go twice a month but now i am only going once a month..i really hope that my back will improve but there is nothing i can do besides doing the exercises at home daily and also going for the physio..hopefully the exercises will improve my back..that is the only thing i can do now..will be consulting the doctor in one month time..hope that there is improvements..if not will have to go for the MRI scan which will cost me a bomb i suppose..i heard that MRI scan is not cheap..i dun wanna waste money..haiz..cos need to save up for study and for family expenses..
Coming July, I will be starting school at SIM doing a Degree in Accountancy awarded by RMIT.. Duration of the course is 2 yrs and total cost is abt $17k..no money to pay so applied for study loan with POSB..so really need to save up..cos every month must pay back..cannot wait till finish studying then pay..This is my last chance to work hard le..must really study hard this time round..cos not young anymore..if still dun study hard n get a degree, then will sure stay in the same company doing all the shit forever..i dun want to do that..so the best way is to upgrade n progress to higher level or other areas..n i also dun want to be looked down by some ppl so i will work very hard to do well..n most imptly, i dun want to waste my $17k..
That's all that i wanna say..just feel frustrated n wanna let go by writing all out..feeling better now..hmmm..not early le going to sleep le..goodnight!!=)
Wondering if u r doing well in camp..must take care wor..
soon will end le..hopefully can meet up soon!!=)
I dunno if u know that i still have feelings for you after so long..
i dun ask for anything from u..n i dun wanna force u..
But I just hope n wish that oneday u will give me a chance
n accept me n give each other a chance to be together..